Well, I guess it had to come sometime - Sherry just broke up with me. I'm really sad about it, of course, but in some ways it's good. After all, she has always lived far away, so most of my day-to-day life is just going to be exactly the same. The most numerous changes will be positive - I won't have to worry about whether or not she's going to call, whether or not she's going to finally buy a plane ticket to see me, and that sort of thing, which had become worse and worse in the past months, and I'll save tons of money on plane tickets (maybe I can even visit some old friends who I've neglected!). Of course I feel wronged in some ways - who doesn't in such a circumstance? I'm not going to pretend that it's Sherry's fault and she's a bad person - but I stuck with her during a really hard time, when it was not easy to be with her, and she didn't have the willpower or the money to buy any tickets on her own so any non-donated tickets were bought by me, and just as she's getting better she decides that this person who's been through that and, it has to be said, forgiven some pretty serious stuff, isn't good enough. I shouldn't put it that way - I know it's not correct, it's more like "not the right person to spend the rest of her life with" - but I'm sure you all understand it feels this way and probably will necessarily for a little while.
I also am not going to pretend that this was my only hope for happiness - that'd be pretty stupid. I'm sure there are other people out there who I will be very happy with. But the life I've been living at IU has sometimes been a bit lonely (and, very seldom, more than a bit) - and it's been wonderful to have someone to talk to about anything a phone call away (when she was reachable). I hope not being in a relationship will mean I will have a bit more of a social life - but I do wonder sometimes. I'm not really a very outgoing person socially (though I think I am personally). And I will say that the dating pool (as far as I've been able to tell - admittedly I haven't really been looking) at the music school at the graduate level is pretty abysmal, especially since so many people are married. And I sure don't want to be the creepy professor going out with the student (not that there's anything wrong with that... in case certain colleagues are reading this...).
Well, what will happen will happen.